People have often asked how I am always upbeat even when the chips are down.
I normally unhelpfully say I don’t know any other way.
Rather than think I guess I try to be creative in the present moment and focus on one thing or step.But this year has been hard, with every month bringing a new challenge of health and wealth and struggle with life choices.
This month has been the worst, with both parents diagnosed with cancer within a week of each other and both my cars being written off due to wear and tear when the family needed them most. I was due to look for work but now I an delayed as I have come to look after my parents who live in another city from where I live.
I tried the well tested way of crying, but my face got too blotchy and throat hurt too much so instead I decided to do one thing.
I checked into my breathing and cocooned myself so not a single thought could pass. I only had to deal with one thing at a time and in that time it was breathing.
I used my soulsync meditation practice that I mentioned in an earlier post.
The humming sound lifted my spirits and the Ahem chant lead me nicely to my intention. Normally I grasp this moment and guilt free chuck out my deep desire but this time I couldn’t think of what I needed, even though I had a long list. The realisation of the truth I’ve always known came to the forefront of my mind.
Whatever is best for you will be provided automatically — just be vigilant and be thankful for whatever state you are in.
Tomorrow we are meeting my father’s surgeon and my own car is going to be given a final decision. My father believes I should worry, but like the tears my thoughts will only be useless and impact my body. Whilst I can’t fix my father’s illness, I hope I can pragmatically deal with it. The car on the other hand will allow me to think creatively. I choose to be present today and my intent today is to light the diyas for Diwali. Happy Diwali everyone. Let their be light in all your life.
soul sync meditation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDd-aGJ0CfE